Here I am almost at the end of January and my word demands that I share with you that it has been a bit of a rocky start…
Confession time; more than once this month I have asked myself why I picked this word! However, one thing I am not is a quitter…and so I forged ahead.
And in January… I always start at the beginning!
Authenticity — noun
The quality of being real or true.
But what does that really mean? Because as I was so handily reminded in Paul Laurence Dunbar’s poem, We Wear The Mask… we all wear a mask on our public face.
I vividly remember several rousing discussions in my confirmation classes around the topic of “white lies.” Yes, even at the tender age of 12 we got that sometimes saying the truth that hurts is not a very nice thing to do in polite conversation. Those “how are you?” inquiries and the “absolutely fine!” responses are not what this year is about.
No, this year is a deeper search into why I withhold authenticity from myself. I should not have to ‘wear the mask’ with myself… right? And yet I do… all.the.time. by ignoring, avoiding, disregarding, neglecting… I think you get that the list could go on and on.
Because my Avoidance Game is strong, this year I am approaching authenticity a bit differently with myself.
This word is different for me and as such will require a new approach! To start I have begun a word cloud that I hope will be a work in progress this year. I started with some things I want to remind myself of this year… including one poem that will be helpful in my journey this year.
I also picked up a book I had planned on reading in January… but I have yet to crack it open! So it is on the top of my list for February.
And there you have my Authentic January start!
Again, I would like to thank Carolyn for providing the perfect Monthly Landing Spot to keep myself accountable. It is most appreciated!
See you all back here on Wednesday with some Unraveling!