Nine months in with my word and some days I feel really ready to move on… others… well, the many more other days I feel like the struggle is real.
Practice is the hardest part of learning, and training is the essence of transformation.
― One Thousand Gifts: A Dare to Live Fully Right Where You Are
Thank you, Ann Voskamp for that quote to remind me that practicing is indeed the hardest part of learning… but it is necessary to changing/learning/growing/being.
So this month, I have been practicing… and it has not been easy at all.
I went back and pulled out my Authenticity Manifesto and looked at it to see if I could find my struggles… and almost instantly I did.
Less-Controlling Kat, where are you?
Defining one’s struggles this easily should mean it would be easy to move past them, to let go of them, to release them… but no, I am living proof it is not.
So this month… I stumbled… and I struggled more… and I reacquainted myself with my word and my goals…but it was a challenging month and I will absolutely keep practicing!
As always, I want to thank Carolyn for providing us all a space to share our progress!
See you all back here on Wednesday!
That seems to be the nature of learning – practice, learn, struggle, go back to the beginning, and repeat. It’s probably of very limited help to you, but to answer the question in your caption, aging may help. I have found that as I get older, I realize how little control I actually have. Sometimes I wish I had more, but I have no control over others, and the only area where I do have some control is myself.
As I age I find I am rediscovering myself and figuring out what works and what does not work. I am high maintenance (LOL). But I love when all the stars align and I feel at peace.
“Defining one’s struggles this easily should mean it would be easy to move past them, to let go of them, to release them… but no…”
I wonder if…the more easily we can define or identify them, the *harder* it is to move past, let go, release. Because if they’re really so easy to spot, it may mean they’ve been with us a while…they may even be part of how we describe ourselves. (Ask me how I know!)
Life Words. This feels like it could be one of those.
Practicing sure is HARD!!! I agree with Bonny and Karen – age helps me. I’ve learned to let go of those things overwhich I have no control (and there are so many things!! LOL).
Sometimes I think you are too hard on yourself, my friend. XOXO
I think if we could let go of things that trouble us easily, then we wouldn’t struggle with them — the struggle is precisely because they’re sticky things! The important thing, as I think you recognize, is to keep up with the struggle and not give in to it. And I think that’s exactly what you’re doing, so keep it up!
Practice is of great value and it certainly doesn’t have to have mastery as the goal. I think a practice is related to being in the moment. Age brings new perspectives that is for sure.
Or maybe it’s time to flip things, and see what has worked and gone well and build on them?
I think I agree with Carole . . . you’re being a little hard on yourself. XOXO Practice . . . is a practice, after all. Push and pull. Baby steps forward and giant steps backward sometimes. You’re learning and applying so many wonderful lessons this year! Maybe it’s time to embrace – and practice – all the things you’ve accomplished.
Y0u probably didn’t intend this to be a reminder for me to go do my PT exercises… but it did. Off I go!