Hello gentle readers,
Summer arrived with a vengeance… the week… and the heat dome have done their best… and while I am still here, I am disappointed, frustrated, and more than a little depressed. So I apologize in advance for this post… sometimes bright and cheery is not possible.
Resigned —
I shared the news that I graduated from PT last Friday. I was foolish to believe that PT solved my problem… my recheck with the urogynocologist on Wednesday did not go at all as I thought it would. It was a lengthy appointment with lots of information… perhaps information overload. But I am just focusing on the next step right now… which is to have an ultrasound of my kidneys which will happen in July. My hope is that there are no kidney issues. I don’t want to think about what is very likely to come next… one concern at a time. I will know more when I head back to the urogynocologist in a few weeks. But if you could spare any calming thoughts… I’d sure appreciate them.
Interrupt —
Because I need every distraction right now, I am taking Lorilee Beltman’s Continental Knitting Class this afternoon. I have very fond memories of Lorilee, who used to live in Michigan and had the loveliest shop in East Grand Rapids. I took fascinating classes with people like Rita Pettys and Jared Flood. Lorilee’s shop was a haven… and I am excited to take a class with her. I have knit my first swatch in my normal knitting mode and I am all ready to challenge my brain to learn something new and hopefully interrupt my current train of thought… (see above…)
Flow —
As in from one step to the next… I finished the ribbing of The Green Vest and am in the process of the bind off. I am using the sewn bind off because it gives the tidiest edge and is perfectly flexible but it is not quick! However, the rhythm of the bind off has become etched in my brain… so I can stop and start as needed! I think I will pick up the stitches around the neck next, which involves a whole different rhythm… but one that is equally delightful! I planted a seed in my brain this morning… can I finish the vest before the weekend is over? I do so love a challenge…even a self imposed one!
Family —
I have had family much on my mind this week… My daughter-in-law is finding some relief to the constant morning sickness (thank goodness for the medicine that is helping her!) My dear Winston will turn 5 on Monday! Summer break activities have begun (and as my daughter said, we are busier than we are during school!) And finally, my Grandpa John who died 55 years ago today. Good reminders to me that the guarantee for tomorrow does not exist… so live in this moment today and make the most of it!
I will be back on Monday with the June word update link up. Have a great weekend all!
Kat – I am sending you the biggest hugs. And I agree that this heat doesn’t help us be our best selves, does it? It seems like every mountain is a little harder to climb right now. You have done an amazing job finding bits of hope in all of the difficulties. I hope your knitting class is a balm for your soul! Take good care.
Oh Kat! I’m so sorry the PT didn’t do ALL of it (I’m sure it has helped some??). I’m sending you all the healing AND calming juju. Often the waiting for answers is the most difficult part. I had not heard of the sewn bind off, but I followed the link you provided and it looks easy and fun (though perhaps more time consuming). I cannot believe Winston will be 5! How did that happen so quickly? It’s fun for me to think of us being in class together this afternoon. Hope your weekend can bring you some calming times. Take care my friend.
I am sending you all the calming thoughts I can muster, and my hopes for a good kidney ultrasound. I am anxious to hear about the continental knitting class. My SiL switched to knitting this way because it was faster, but when I tried, it was a near disaster. I tried for a good two weeks, but it was ruing knitting for me so I gave up and went back to my normal way. I hope you are much more successful than I was!
Sorry to hear that the PT was minimally effective. “There’s no guarantee for tomorrow…” a thought worth frequent reminders.
Sending all the calming thoughts your way. This heat has been the bunk and makes everything else a little more challenging. I hope the kidney ultrasound yields positive results. It is so frustrating to have to wait and worry about outcomes. In the last few months, I often had to take myself in hand and focus on the next few hours, as in my job right now is to make a grocery list, or enjoy an hour of knitting or stitching, or just make it to the next appointment on time. I hope the class is a good distraction and that your heat breaks. I’m also glad you have family in your life. Take care.
I’m sorry that PT did not do all that you wanted it to. I am sending you all the gentle hugs! You are on top of things and taking the right steps, and I am confident that all the people you are working with will find a way to make things better. I’ll keep my fingers crossed that the ultrasound reveals nothing out of the ordinary! I hope the class yesterday was enjoyable and a good distraction. And I hope you and Frankie enjoyed the cooler temps yesterday evening after the rain moved through!
I’m so sorry to hear you are struggling. Health concerns can be so overwhelming and it can make it hard to think about anything else much less enjoy daily life. I hope you get answers and a clear path forward soon but in the meantime I hope you can do your best to not worry until you have something to worry about.
Much love coming to you from me in England. Distraction sometimes is the only way to go.
Kat, I am sending ALL the calming juju your way. Keep breathing, my friend. Uncertainty always weighs heavily . . . Once you get a firm understanding of the issue, you’ll be able to meet it head on (as is your way). For now, though, patience and calming activities (and your friends) will get you through. Sending love. XO
your in my daily prayers (have been!) I hope the fix is fast and easy. Getting older isn’t that much fun when there are health issues to deal with.